Light’s Edge.

Light’s Edge.

You will forgive us. You whose eyes call upon sleep to shut all out. We come to you, though you attempt to ignore us. We are visions compiled, catalogued, housed in places appropriate or not, uncontrolled images, flashes of indeterminate light. We are entangled with your thoughts.
We are a vision of catacombs. Cold masonry encloses us, and we are enwrapped by an eternal dampness. We envision the slight sound of a river above. It may be a false image of sound, an image only memory can make. But our memories are made up of pictures, passing through stale air to you. Your flesh may misinterpret. There are also images of bones. We are, as nearly as we can ascertain, a pile of them lying on the hard clay floor.
We know bones do not speak, so do not become confused. We are not these bones, per se, we are what once was propped up by them and it is not just these bones, these scattered femurs, cracked hip bones, tattered ribcages, and white shards. We are all bones, earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust that do not speak to you, but rather steer your eyes to a representation of our vision.
As wine is blood and bread is body, we are a thin veil. A light gauze of the left behind, beyond the puss of thought. We leave thoughts behind us. As soon as they appear, after their initial creation, they can no longer be ours, for we no longer have them. They become yours.
Your hands are shaped by what you are and by what you do. They are calloused by the grip of tools, or they are softened by the aid of privilege. Your fingers learn functions you ask of them, and you do not realize the genius of their simple actions. Yet you are all action. Movement is yours. You belong to the movement of nature and above all to the movement of technology that sticks to your body, an adhesive of gadgetry, engaging in never-ending manipulation of time, space, and structure. A structure such as these catacombs. Do not trust this movement, trust only our visions, for you are amid discovering immortality while death moves you into its sphere.
We paint a space inside you, this place deep under the city. This image comes from within you as it leads you to look at the walls around you, arches, pillars, the cartilage of structure, a world built by hands like yours. Soft are the hands of planners, hard are the hands of builders. In this cursed and unlucky ditch, the walls look older than Earth, each stone a singular unique shape packed with the bits and pieces of what holds you up. There is the smell of wet stone, the occasional drip of wild water, for there is the pounding current of that river, albeit a fictional river. Below on the dusty floor that cannot decide whether to be smooth or rough, our bones lie among mildewed books, paintings, scrolls that have long lost their ink.
There are casks of port wine that missed their stowing upon an ancient ship. Our vision takes you to sails and the sweetness of the port which you lick off your lips. There is the smell of fish and salt, and pastries lacquered with sugar harvested by stiff, coarse fingers.
You wonder about the books, what they say, voices from the past, so much like bones, and the paintings that feature glowing shapes real and surreal, sacred life stilled, halos on their heads, scepters in their hands, spears piercing their hearts, images of a past that never existed. These representations of illuminated life lean against one another, haphazardly, like litter among the broken pieces of wall and ceiling. There are thousands of them.
In those hands of yours, you hold a light. Its source is like the daylight sky you wish you could see. A few fallen bricks reveal a false wall hiding a hidden enclosure. Your light helps illuminate chains behind the false wall, more bones interlaced with them. Unopened bottles of port litter the enclosure. Your hands are talented. They reach through a small opening and grab a link of chain. You pull. All is fragile.
You swear the sound of the fictional river becomes louder, deafening. The walls of the catacombs become as soft as moist dirt. The kind of dirt crops are planted in, mixed with occasional stones and both your soft and rough hands.
You will forgive us. You whose eyes call upon sleep to shut all out.

A minimalist collage in ternary form comprised of analog tape loops, piano, Yamaha CS-5, a few filters, and a Reason mixer.

Power lines, speed of light shit.
You can hear them in the rain
The ones high up, overhead, straight from the dam
Passing the small towns, you loved
Along those river roads.
Your voice is still there, poking around old man bars
Where my feet dangled from barstools
Lips drooped around the edge of an IPA
Where gambling machines replaced jukeboxes
And barflies smoked outside in the rain.
The wilderness sat next to your bitters and soda.
You feared the river, the animals, their sound
Where the forest ditched the highway.
Scared of the things you thought you protected.
In some places the water is still unincumbered
Streams, rivers merge.
I never showed you
The road was close, so close, just hidden
Behind trees, wild rhododendrons,
Skunk cabbage, and camas.
It sounds different out there.
I remember you running back to the parking lot
In some kind of terror.
That image, stuck in my mind.
I wish I could be scared
Even Lost
But I’m not, I can’t.
I find myself running, further from the highway,
From the sound of wires, speed limits, and your voice
Walking where fall lays down its new carpet.
And underneath those yellowed aspen leaves
Underneath the mix of pine needles
A road appears…again
To another small town
Shaking off the thirsty summer
From its fields of tall grass.


I’m on hands and knees
Sketching your lips…
Into the dry mud of this meadow.
Wooden steps built here
To cross over the old wetlands.
Useless now.
In the past
We walked across
This meadow
When mist made trees rain.
We were awkward
Unsure
About our balance
About our steps
Thankful for a rare dry patch.
The path, in and around
Here
Brought us…closer
To mountain views
Sweet water springs
Where thoughts became lucid…
A lucidness
That aligns the heart
With blood & soul
Shapeless, wordless.
Now,
This beauty, these lucid thoughts
Lie hard beneath me
I stand at the edge of the meadow
As we had
Realizing the wetlands are no more.
We’ve misunderstood
Each other,
The land.
I can only think about us.
It is like
We balance on stilts
For no apparent reason
Poking & prodding the earth
Relinquishing the comfort
We had with one another
I’ve drawn your image into
This dryness.
Maybe it’ll last forever
And all who come here anew
Will see us, what we built
What we created.
What we loved about each other
What we lost between us
Those who see your image
Will be lovers like us
Who
Run with the pack
As we have ran
Eat from desires
Real & imagined.
As we have eaten
Look for the primary colors
As we have painted them
Upon brittle canvas